It’s been a long time since I last went to church. The events of the last year have made me fall away from something I felt close to, and as a result I’ve not set foot inside of a church for almost a year now.
I caught up with two friends recently, both of who don’t know each other, but both of them offered the same advice – get my spiritual life sorted out. I wouldn’t have minded, but they both said the same thing. Once my spirit is at peace, then the rest will fall into place.
I’ve often thought about what would happen if I truly did rely totally on my spiritual life, and have seen many examples of other people who have done so and who have been abundantly blessed, not necessarily all financial either. Part of me wants to try it, but another part of me is worried as to what may happen as a result. I don’t know why I’m worried, as surely there’s nothing to worry about. I guess what I need to do is take a leap of faith, and try to forget any misgivings I have. It may mean that I have to take some difficult decisions, but the support is there if I choose to reach out and ask for it.
I’m going to go to church tomorrow – I will go the 9:30am service. It will be slightly scary for me, as it will mean stepping back into a place I’ve not been to for a while, and also will come with a wall of questions no doubt. But, it’s a first step and one that I have to take.